Scars

One of the bad habits I've always had is to always pick at my cuts. I always wanted to make them bleed again for some reason. I always pick at the scabs of my cuts even though I'm told not to. I even tell myself not to, but I always end up doing so. Even when the scab is no longer there, and the cut has healed, I still tend to scratch the scar that's left, eventually brining forth some sort of rash that develops into a new cut. Though I wonder, when and if I'll ever stop picking at my cuts...or my scars. More importantly, why do I like to see old scars bleed?

It's like a bad reference to a song, but predates it.

今、抱きしめたい。でも、抱きしめると、多分ね、力がなくて、もうはなせるは出来ない。涙がいくつでも泣いて、もうはなさないで。