Scars

One of the bad habits I've always had is to always pick at my cuts. I always wanted to make them bleed again for some reason. I always pick at the scabs of my cuts even though I'm told not to. I even tell myself not to, but I always end up doing so. Even when the scab is no longer there, and the cut has healed, I still tend to scratch the scar that's left, eventually brining forth some sort of rash that develops into a new cut. Though I wonder, when and if I'll ever stop picking at my cuts...or my scars. More importantly, why do I like to see old scars bleed?

It's like a bad reference to a song, but predates it.

今、抱きしめたい。でも、抱きしめると、多分ね、力がなくて、もうはなせるは出来ない。涙がいくつでも泣いて、もうはなさないで。

wasurenai...wasureraretakunai.

-tameiki-

wo xiang yao na bu ke neng dan shi ke yi. ano hi ni, wo de lao peng you no hanashi wa tada pagkakataon. pero harinawa't dili sono fuu ni. boku wa...akiramenai. demo akiramenakattara...nani ga atta ka na....

kono hi ni, nanka shiawase o kanjiru. wo hen gao xing la. yin wei wo lao peng you boku ni hanasu wa mou hajimatte... mou ni nen mae, wo men wa warui kimochi ga otagai ni kanjiru to ka...itsu yori mo nandemo tatakau o suru. sono ri ni, mou nanimo shou. demo, jing tian wo hen gao xing. wo totemo, xin kara, yokatta. xin kara, warau.